I feel like this summer is going to bring a healing...Things are really going to change this summer!!!
Here is a list of what I want to get done...Attain my 75 Volunteer hours and then more this summer
CIY/MOVE conference July 2010 @ Georgia and Tennessee
Spend time with my sister
HELP everyone who asks just because....
Do without wanting anything in return
Get back into dancing
Start my own scrapbook
Spend more time with my sister
Spend more time in my bible
Spend more time in prayer
Find my relationship I had with papa before
Forgive, everyone who has ever hurt me
Take a chance
Get over my fear of bridges'
Get over my fear of heights
Get over my fear of imperfection
Get over my need for everything to be straight
Start a chain letter with my friends....this should be intresting!
Smile EVERY chance I get
Let my hair down and be myself for once in my life
Forget the mask and remain true to myself and God
Take a chance!!!!
I want to take as many risks as possible this summer. I want to just let my hair down and be myself. I am so tired of being uptight and constantly wearing this mask. I am so excited about the healing this summer is going to be. The second summer being home ALL SUMMER! Any recommendations for how to fulfill these goals, or overcome these things...LET ME KNOW!
Friday, May 28, 2010
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Exciting unexpected visit
OMG....as if God wasn't trying to keep me positive, my aunt who I've not seen in two years. She makes a suprise visit and she came all the way from Colorado. I love her, she used to be my anchor in the storm, I get to see her Thursday, this was what I needed. I am almost in tears...I love her soooooo much! She is the BEST! She is the calmest spirit, the most humble, the most just gasp.....I am just in awe at Gods timing. You know what even when the walls are crumbling down around me God never ceases to just AMAZE me!
Acceptance
Dictionary.com says that acceptance is the act of recieving or taking something given to you.
Lately I have heard a lot of stories of women frustrated, angry, hurt, and let down. Some of these have been caused by others but one thing I have noticed is that we as women often are harder on ourselves than anyone else ever could be. We beat ourselves up and don't let go of our mistakes. Although recognizing an error in your judgment is great it can also be our downfall.Errors happen you are only human. Sometimes you are caught up in the moment and you find yourself doing things, saying things, or giving things you would never do in your heart. You doubt your own judgment and fail to listen to the conviction God is giving you. We all have been there and done that. Our parents have been there and done that, but when we make an error in judgment we beat ourselves into the ground for sometimes years?
I read recently to nurture yourself with acceptance and before reading any further I knew the power in just that one statement. Our projections of ourselves reflect in how we project to others. Our doubts in ourselves reflect in how well we trust others. Our inability to sometimes forgive ourselves reflects in our forgiveness of others who have wronged us. Our biggest error is not loving and forgiving ourselves for mistakes we have made. How can we love someone else when we can not love and forgive ourselves. Accept yourself with forgiveness and love. Accept that you are going to make bad judgments from time to time and that the lessons we take from them will help us from making them again. By accepting our own faults we can see that others have faults of their own and forgive them. To truly forgive the past you must start by forgiving yourself. Then you are giving real love, trust, and value. The biggest lesson you can learn is to never lose yourself and that doubting your inner peace will only make you angry, mistrusting, and controlling.
You may healed from these things, you may have learned to forgive yourself already, but for those of you right smack in the middle of this type of situation you must stop quiet yourself and be still. Forgive and have faith that the right decisions will come when you need them. Soften your heart and let go of hate. Nurture your life with acceptance and you will find the strength you need.
Lately I have heard a lot of stories of women frustrated, angry, hurt, and let down. Some of these have been caused by others but one thing I have noticed is that we as women often are harder on ourselves than anyone else ever could be. We beat ourselves up and don't let go of our mistakes. Although recognizing an error in your judgment is great it can also be our downfall.Errors happen you are only human. Sometimes you are caught up in the moment and you find yourself doing things, saying things, or giving things you would never do in your heart. You doubt your own judgment and fail to listen to the conviction God is giving you. We all have been there and done that. Our parents have been there and done that, but when we make an error in judgment we beat ourselves into the ground for sometimes years?
I read recently to nurture yourself with acceptance and before reading any further I knew the power in just that one statement. Our projections of ourselves reflect in how we project to others. Our doubts in ourselves reflect in how well we trust others. Our inability to sometimes forgive ourselves reflects in our forgiveness of others who have wronged us. Our biggest error is not loving and forgiving ourselves for mistakes we have made. How can we love someone else when we can not love and forgive ourselves. Accept yourself with forgiveness and love. Accept that you are going to make bad judgments from time to time and that the lessons we take from them will help us from making them again. By accepting our own faults we can see that others have faults of their own and forgive them. To truly forgive the past you must start by forgiving yourself. Then you are giving real love, trust, and value. The biggest lesson you can learn is to never lose yourself and that doubting your inner peace will only make you angry, mistrusting, and controlling.
You may healed from these things, you may have learned to forgive yourself already, but for those of you right smack in the middle of this type of situation you must stop quiet yourself and be still. Forgive and have faith that the right decisions will come when you need them. Soften your heart and let go of hate. Nurture your life with acceptance and you will find the strength you need.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Re: A radical differnce
Ever feel like maybe all of a sudden things are fixed. Like you have been struggling to fix every right thing. And, then boom it happens. Everything falls into place in your own mind. After praying for months, years....Then its like one day in your worship or prayer or faith walk , you begin to just heal. God works on you...nacks at your imperfections! You see the bigger picture...all of a sudden you see his heart, his will, and notice how much greater everything he has planned it.
Its like all of a sudden you quiet your soul, you remember what he did at calvary. No addiction means anything, no hurt or pain from the past remains...its been erased, and you suddenly are filled with an cverwelming sence of peace and joy! All of a sudden your at calvaries cross, arms raised and your sins are gone. In an overwelming sense of perfection, oh what a perfect God we serve. You see the beauty behind the pain, behind the addiction, you see the Testimony and the point of the test...
Suddenly, you realize you have to let it go, for now and for always. I reached that point today. I saw the bigger picture, and realized how imperfect I am. How perfect God is, and how amazing his grace and mercy is. And, how it flows ever so gently from his hands. Suddenly everything I'd done didn't matter anymore. But, what mattered more it the fact that I have to do something with this. Faith without works is dead. I have to use this testimony. Multi- testimonies...actually. I am a walking testimony, I should be dead. All the shouldas and couldas DIDN'T matter! The only thing that matters is GOD! Oh and what a radical differnce the rest of my day has gone...
Its like all of a sudden you quiet your soul, you remember what he did at calvary. No addiction means anything, no hurt or pain from the past remains...its been erased, and you suddenly are filled with an cverwelming sence of peace and joy! All of a sudden your at calvaries cross, arms raised and your sins are gone. In an overwelming sense of perfection, oh what a perfect God we serve. You see the beauty behind the pain, behind the addiction, you see the Testimony and the point of the test...
Suddenly, you realize you have to let it go, for now and for always. I reached that point today. I saw the bigger picture, and realized how imperfect I am. How perfect God is, and how amazing his grace and mercy is. And, how it flows ever so gently from his hands. Suddenly everything I'd done didn't matter anymore. But, what mattered more it the fact that I have to do something with this. Faith without works is dead. I have to use this testimony. Multi- testimonies...actually. I am a walking testimony, I should be dead. All the shouldas and couldas DIDN'T matter! The only thing that matters is GOD! Oh and what a radical differnce the rest of my day has gone...
Sunday, May 16, 2010
| YOU SAY | GOD SAYS | BIBLE VERSES |
| You say: "It's impossible" | God says: All things are possible | (Luke 18:27) |
| You say: "I'm too tired" | God says: I will give you rest | (Matthew 11:28-30) |
| You say: "Nobody really loves me" | God says: I love you | (John 3:16 & John 3:34) |
| You say: "I can't go on" | God says: My grace is sufficient | (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15) |
| You say: "I can't figure things out" | God says: I will direct your steps | (Proverbs 3:5-6) |
| You say: "I can't do it" | God says: You can do all things | (Philippians 4:13) |
| You say: "I'm not able" | God says: I am able | (II Corinthians 9:8) |
| You say: "It's not worth it" | God says: It will be worth it | (Roman 8:28) |
| You say: "I can't forgive myself" | God says: I Forgive you | (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1) |
| You say: "I can't manage" | God says: I will supply all your needs | (Philippians 4:19) |
| You say: "I'm afraid" | God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear | (II Timothy 1:7) |
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated" | God says: Cast all your cares on ME | (I Peter 5:7) |
| You say: "I don't have enough faith" | God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith | (Romans 12:3) |
| You say: "I'm not smart enough" | God says: I give you wisdom | (I Corinthians 1:30) |
| You say: "I feel all alone" | God says: I will never leave you or forsake you | (Hebrews 13:5) |
Six Steps to Let Go.....
Six Steps to Letting Go of Your Past:
- Write, talk, draw, paint, or otherwise tap into your thoughts and memories. Letting go of your past means honoring your memories.
- Let go of the emotions and feelings of painful memories by letting them wash over you – you'll feel horrible during, but relieved and peaceful afterwards. Let go of your past by reliving it.
- Go back and talk to the people involved, if possible. Letting go of your past can mean going back.
- Share your real feelings; confess if it's appropriate. Letting go of your past means expressing your emotions. If you have to deal with your mistakes, then own up to your shame or guilt.
- Apologize and ask forgiveness if you need to. Letting go of your past means being vulnerable.
- Get help with uncontrollable urges to overeat, get stoned or drunk, or otherwise hurt yourself. Letting go of your past means burying your pride
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